.::A Fallen Soul::.

James *Bulldog* Jerome Spence

Today is a gloomy day for everyone I know in Portland...

Last night (this morning) at 1am, My friend Paul took my dear friend James downtown to drop him off.

Just moments later, *Bulldog* was shot in the head, and rushed to the hospital with life threatening injuries.

I didn't hear this terrible news until I received a text from Carl at 6pm today at work.

It was hard to work the rest of the day knowing I wanted to break down and cry and rush to the hospital to support him.

I have so much love for ALL of my friends, and having something like this happen to someone you love and care for is just tragic! :'(

I'm overwhelmed with emotion.

I haven't heard full status of his passing, so I personally am going to believe he's still fighting.

But my mother told me the family took him off life support around 6pm tonight.

If he has passed: Rest In Peace my brotha, we all love you so very much!

May a new and wonderful journey start for you!

There was a last minute candle vigil where he got shot on 10th & Salmon tonight at 10pm. It was so amazing to see that so many people came out for this to support. I know there could have been more had it not been last minute, but there will be support for him if and when they have services.

I am thinking of writing something to say at the service. I really need to let people know that although this man may have had some fucked up past issues, he was and is still very loved, and made a huge impact on the scene with his jolliness, and smiles!

NO-ONE SHOULD EVER FORGET THAT SMILE!

I am greatyly saddened by this.

This month has been "Trying" and "Overwhelming".

I LOVE YOU BULLDOG!

YOU ARE A SAINT!

*song of the moment: Incubus - Nice to Know you

"Perspective pries your once weighty eyes and it gives you wings,

I haven't felt the way I feel today

In so long it's hard for me to specify

I'm beginning to notice how much this feels

Like a waking limb, pins and needles, nice to know you

Goodbye, nice to know you

Goodbye, nice to know you

Deeper than the deepest Cousteau would ever go

And higher than the heights of what we often think we know"

.::Another Noise::.

Saturday evening I had my music magazine interview on film. It was nervewracking, but the less than 10 minute chat was sweet, and fun.

I only hope I don't look or sound like an idiot when the time comes to view that film.

Bright lights on the face, give an overpowering feeling of "littleness".

Saturday was also the first Saturday I haven't gone out to party in probably over 4 months.
It was nice, but I was little overwhelmed with boredom and loneliness.

I got a lot done with my music though, and I actually started sorting and packing the mass amounts of shit I have to deal with before moving.

The world is an intense little place right now...

Where can I find you?

Where can I hide you?

I'm so lost, broken and misunderstood...

So alone, at home wishing I could...

Take a breath and whisk away...

And leave today for another day.

Maybe there's a light out there,

Maybe I can shake your hand and walk into the glare.

My heart's in love, my soul is numb,

I don't know if you'll ever come.

I'll take a look inside this glass,

and wait for the day to cease.

My eyes, they water, dripping fast,

I feel your so hard to please.

Make a wish on that star,

and dance the night away.

My love for you will always last,

I just hope your here to stay.

©2007 Rei

*song of choice today: Lowie - Clementi